HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! Well not just yet, but almost. As a mother of three I am constantly failing in every aspect of my life. I am failing as a mother, as a wife, as a follower of God. I set these standards for myself that are not reachable, and when I fail to achieve them....then I consider myself a "failure".
Every year we all sit down to make those "New Years Resolutions" I have made and broken so many. One year I was "not going to lose my temper " Then on new years day as everyone just sat around and watched me clean up the mess that was made from the night before......well you can just imagine how long that one lasted. Another year I was "going to lose 50+ lbs" then half way through that year we discovered baby number three was on the way and I ended up gaining 50 lbs instead. Another year I was "going to be the noble woman" Yea right!! I mean really, have you read about this woman in Proverbs 31??? "She gets up while it is still dark,...." that characteristic alone would have to take a miracle for me !!! Another year I was "going to be the perfect mom" I mean really??? Is there such a thing??? All of these resolutions are not reachable!! I ended up wasting the whole year focusing on the impossible that I didn't see all of the blessings in front of me. Worrying about all of the things that I needed to change, that I made no progress at all.
I have written a song about this. It's about how we pray to God to change all of the little things in our life so that we could be "happy" ........... "God if you would just make my children more grateful then I wouldn't lose my temper as much" "Dear God, if you would just give us a bigger house then i could have my own space and I could spend more time seeking You in peace" "Dear God don't even get me started on that husband of mine!!! You and me both know that he is the problem not me!!" "Dear God I am telling you what is making me so miserable!!! Now I need You to fix it so that I can be happy!!"
Here is what God said....."I gave you a roof over your head with running water, I gave you three beautiful children. I gave you a hard working husband so that you could stay home with these children and fulfill your purpose as a mother. If all of My "BLESSINGS" are making you miserable then I guess you will have to keep walking around that same mountain until you see your "burdens" as "blessings" because I am not going to change a thing that I gave you. The mistake is not with Me, it is with your perspective. Your children are not grateful because they are watching how ungrateful you are"
God is not going to change your mountain......He is using your mountain to change you.....maybe like me, the one thing that you need to change about yourself this year is your perspective...
Happy New Year to all,...... and my new years resolution is.......to keep on walking until I get there. Without complaining, without question and always finding and enjoying the blessings along the way.......:)
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